Category: Me

friends, politics

Been a while again. We have a few friends in Sacramento now. That’s nice. We were/are heavily involved in some political activities…but I don’t feel like it’s enough. I’m going on daily power walks with our neighbor Gary, during which we talk about politics (he’s a Libertarian) and Java (he’s basically mentoring me and forcing me to work through Bruce Eckel’s book). Things are pretty good. I’m nervous about the business still, and about how I’m not famous yet…but, it’s becoming more and more clear to me that I’m insane, so I don’t listen to these crazy demands that I make of myself as much anymore.

doing ok

The business now has two employees! Things are pretty good. My big complaint right now is that any sort of financial freedom is constantly elusive. oh well. Also, I’m feeling like everyone is conspiring to make me old before I’m ready. Also, I’m just in a funk because I still don’t know anything about anything. whatever. I don’t even know why I have this site. I’m afraid that people are reading it, but I write in it as if people are reading it. It’s interesting for me to go back and read old messages and I wish that I were posting to it more frequently, but at the same time, I don’t really want to post to it and when I do, it’s pretty much the same ol’ crap.

Here are my things to be happy about:
Margaret got her eyes fixed!
I’m still not smoking
I weigh less than I did when I was smoking (although I’m still not happy with that)
The business is growing

That’s about all I can think of right now. Not bad. I’ve got some work to do.

hiring and writing

Business is doing crazy things. We’re hiring our first employee Monday and we have an office now. We also seem to have a lot of work all of a sudden. So, things might be going well. I’ve started getting up at 6 in the morning and doing a little writing every morning. That feels good, although I’m certain that everything I’m writing sucks. I’ll just stick to it.

austin, cat scratch fever

I went to Austin last weekend for a deposition related to the car accident we were in in November 2000. I won’t write anything about that wonderful experience, for fear that some evil legal aide is reading this looking for character flaws that prove that I’m a bad bad person.

After the deposition, I stayed at Steve and Erin’s for a couple days and hung out with them, Vince, and Gary. It was a very nice visit, except for two things:

– Their cat went crazy on me and gouged my face. This wasn’t a big deal, I just didn’t like having to keep saying that it was really all right.
– I woke up sunday morning (the day of my flight home) feeling horrible–like I had food poisoning. I spent the whole morning and early afternoon running into Steve and Erin’s only bathroom. I felt so bad.

I think maybe I had cat scratch fever.

servers, music, money

I’m still here…the last entry was me rearranging and consolidating servers. That project is done now, and we’re saving $50/month as a result! Pretty exciting. Combine that with the $20/month we’re saving by using Netzero.com rather than paying for a dialup account when we travel…and we’re saving $70/month on internet access and hosting.

Um. We’re making some moves with the business. It’s about time. Right now, we’re in Oakland at the Homewood suites because we have meetings with clients tomorrow about us doing more work (I hope). Wish us luck.

I’m working on a cd of songs about Texas/Truckin. The cd will be called “Songs I Learned in Texas”. It’s gonna be hot.

Still practicing piano lots and loving it. I’ve also started saving for a sax. I figure if I had started putting away the money I was spending on cigs back when I quit, I’d have a sax now. But I didn’t and I don’t. I will, though.

Anyway, this entry seems to be all about money. That’s too bad. I’ll try to be more interesting to myself next time I write here.

RIP Colin

October was a terrible month. The big reason was a death in the family–my brother’s son, Colin. He was a great kid. Only 6. I was just starting to feel like I knew him.

November is promising to be better, but it’s still clouded by October. The recording project with David is coming along nicely, the SEELAND records/Negativland people are very impressed with the tracks as they are now. Margaret and I got a piano, and I’m obsessed with practicing. What am I really obsessed with? I guess it’s just obsession with proving that I can be good at something. I spend a huge amount of time thinking about becoming famous. I should see a shrink about that or something. Other people don’t seem to have this obsession. Other people seem to just do what they like.

Anyway, I’m in a funk and practicing piano is helping. Margaret is taking lessons now! Mr. Jones loves it when we play. Piano and getting in shape are the two things that are occupying the biggest parts of my brain right now. I’ve even stopped worrying so much about the business.

taking over the world

Still not smoking. 41 days!

Tuesday, Margaret and I started a diet.

I’m working on kicking my exercise program up a notch or three.

This is MY life and I’m taking over from all these bad things.

Next steps: more creativity, more focus, more fame. Success is a process.

Concrete steps: guitar lessons (got to play guitar to be famous), exercise/>lose exercise/>lose-weight-exercise/>weight/get in shape (got to be in shape to be famous)

Yes. I am crazy.